I can’t believe how difficult it is for me to be still. Even when I want to be still, I can’t. Or at least I feel I can’t. If I sit for too long, I start to get jittery and feel like I need to do something. This is definitely a problem and an area of my life that I need to change. For me, it takes great discipline to sit still and simply be.
To start out my retreat, I knew I needed to still my restless self. The way I did this was I sat and read for many, many hours. I took a nap and then read some more. After some time had passed, I could literally feel myself getting anxious inside. I resisted the urge to get up and do something and just kept reading. The anxiousness subsided and I began to notice that it got less and less. As with everything, it is taking practice for me to resist the urge to constantly be busy.