life isn’t slowing down

I feel like I have the same old story lately. I’m busy, and at the end of the day (or sometimes the beginning) I have little space in my head for creativity or much of anything for that matter. I’m tired and bored of the same old story, but I find myself in an interesting season of life. The past year has not slowed down. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. Just a couple of weeks ago marked a year since we said, “Yes,” to stepping back into leadership at Ten Thousand Homes. I could have guessed that re-pioneering a ministry (in a sense) would have its challenges and involve a lot of work, but I don’t think I could have prepared myself for the intense amount of mental power it would take.

The other day, as I sat at the coffee shop alone reflecting on my current season of life, I had a revelation. You see, in the busyness, I’ve found it hard to carve out times of rest and times of exercising creativity, something that is so life giving to me. I’ve been frustrated at this, because I keep thinking, “Isn’t this what I learned in sabbatical? The importance of those things and that, in order to sustain, I need to be doing it?” Here’s where my revelation came in. Yes, I did learn those things but you see, sabbatical took away the work side of things so I could just be. It was a wonderful and unique season.

Now the responsibilities of work are all around, and I must figure out how I can put into practice the things I learned in sabbatical. I guess I just thought it would happen naturally. I thought wrong. In order to run the race with endurance, I must put effort into figuring out how I can balance life, work, ministry, creativity, kids, family, and whatever else I’m missing, in this season.

So that’s where I’m at…right in the thick of it.